Hot Crossed Buns

Dear Diary,

How are you today? I'm fine.

I just woke up. It's like 2 now. In the afternoon.

The good things about not having a job.

Well, jam packed day. Sorry I haven't been updating much. I promise I will finish out the jail story. There's like 10 more pages I have to transpose. And I need to go get my paychecks today, and fix my computer, and call some people, and get ready to go to visit out of town friends this weekend and probably some other stuff I can't think of right now. Fun stuff.

I'd rather go back to sleep and stay asleep and not face the world, but you just can't do that. This isn't jail. Heh.

Crackbaby just breezed in and out.... he's on his way to work now.

I find it hard for me to complain about anything these days. Nothing compares to the complaint level of the previous two weeks. So I guess you are looking at the grudgingly happy Rizzn.

Gosh this entry sucks. sorry. I'll do better next time.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Last night I went up to Greg and I said, "Greg, you are a hot piece of ass."

- tenderpoison

First update of jail stuff

writings from jail, first entry

Dear Diary,

I finally have something to writ on and with and it feels great. I also have some cigs to smoke. Of course they are only Marlboros (yuck) but it is better than nothing.

I guess i should update you as to how events transpired to put me in jail for a week and a half with a Klansman for a cellmate who is such an inbred fool that he won't be able to interpret my rune-skript with the key written on the top.

But anyways, as some of you know, I was pretty destitute and broke last year and in the process of moving to Dallas I recieved a couple traffic tickets. I failed to appear so they eventually turned to warrants.

Lewissville PD picked me up for these warrants Friday night while I was picking up party supplies. I knew I was going to jail. Before he even pulled out of his speed trap. He followed me for two blocks before he even turned on his lights. It really sucked.

After the arrest and processing, I was stuck in solitary for an hour, until they finally gave me my phone call. I informed the roomies where they could get my car, which they did. And were at that time informed that my fines came to around $1900. Needless to say, no-one was able to afford that, so at that point I knew I was in for the long haul.

I spent the night in a holding cell with a cot and a blanket. Up to the time I got got my final cell in Van Zandt County, these were the best accomadations I recieved. Over the course of the night several drunk fools entered my cell with their blankets in hand. And was a follow named Brandon, in for a DUI. He was going around 130 MpH down I-35 N on Wild Turkey. He was 18. Then there was Travis, in for grand theft, quite the criminal, having been in every jail in the metroplex at the ripe old age of 26. And then there was Raphael, age 17, arrested for DWI as well. The funny thing with Raphael was that he didn't have a drivers license and doesn't drive. He wasn't driving when he was arrested, he was sitting in a car listening to some music.. The rest of the cots filled up over the course of the night but I didn't notice them really as I slept thru the night fairly decently.

writings from jail, saturday night

I wake up to find the cells pretty full with aforementioned individuals.

I awoke to be served some pretty terrible microwaveable food. It looked good on the box, but tasted about as good as cardboard. I ate very little of the small portion served. (think Hormel making a whole meal! Yes, that good!)

I went back to sleep for a bit, more and was later woken when the whole crew was sent to go before the pseudo judge (some sort of assistant or semi judge thingy) to have our bails assesed. It was there when I learned who everyone was and how badly I wronged the state of Texas. Sortof. No-one was very helpful at all. I wound up pleading not guilty to all charges, which did not help me get out of there any quicker. So I spent saturday chatting with everyone until they made bail one by one. When I was alone at about 2:00 pm, I was alone in the big cell again until about 9:00 pm when the DWI's and DUI'S straggled back in to jail.

Around 10:00pm a Mexican fellow from Durango or something got picked up for theft of a television at a Target. He spoke very little English. Conversation was scarce. I think his name was George Mendez (sounds like Whore-Gay). A couple other fellows came in there shortly thereafter - a fellow named Paul, in for assault on his dad, and Mexican dude name Jesus (sounds like Hey-Seuss). After a while of chating with my new fellow inmates, we went in for my second arraignment -- this time with a real judge.

This time was the first time anyone was actually helpful to me and explained what I'd need to do to take kare of my fines. he gave me about $500 credit on my $824 fine in Lewisville for time served. Thereafter I was marched back into the cell. I went to sleep up until around 4:00am.

When gearge and I were shackled and transported to a state jail -- Denton County jail. After processing, I was sent to the special kind of hell called the "holding cell". This would be my new home for a while.

To be continued when I feel up to it later.

Love, Rizzn

Hi. I'm back now

Dear Diary...

I'm out of jail, back to updating. Sorry to those of you who emailed me, my box filled up with a few attachments, and i'm sure most of your emails bounced.

I was in jail for traffic tickets. At one point it was a grand total of $1900 bucks. Some how it worked itself down to $207, and my dad came and paid for me to get out today, for some reason. A day before I was supposed to be released, but oh well.

I have chronicled the whole freaking adventure, somewhere in the middle of it I did get a tablet and pen to write with.

But I've lost my job and the respect of my peers in the process, so I'm pretty down about that. Getting a new job shouldn't be a problem. It just blows that I have to do it.

Anyways, expect major update with previous week's info in the near future.

Love, Rizzn

With one hand, believe it or not.

Dear Diary,

Ack! With monkeys the size of Kelly and Kat on my back, it makes me feel guilty for not updating a few hundred times a day. But don't stop doing the guilt trip thing, it's pretty flattering.

Well, this is a diary entry to say that I might not be talking to you diary for the next day or two or three because it's the weekend of WhazzupCon2000: Lan Wars, ie, my cheesey name for the huge assed lan party we are having over at muh old apartment this weekend.

I took a day off work to prepare. What have I done with this time? I've wanked and wanked, that's what I've done. What else would you expect from the Captain of Team Wank.

Thanks for the favorite lines of BS everyone keeps sending me. They keep me in stitches. Well, not stitches, but chuckles at least. ;-)

My gosh, I am glad that whole thing's resolved. Heh.

welp, I'm out like a ... uhm.. thing that's really really out.

Sorry guys, my razor sharp wit isn't working today.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Lets all give a huge RAWR!! (with one hand) for Sabby!!! "

- Super Fast Kel

RAWR!

BS PhD: BullSh!t Piled Head Deep.

Dear Diary,

Once again, at the Kat, I shall update. ;-)

Well, hrmm, waitta second, I haven't checked my mail today. hrmm Lemme see if there's something interesting there to talk about.

Oh wait, you want something interesting? Read this chat log that took place only seconds ago.

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Yahoo! Messenger: Conference [Rizzn]-72920 started.
Yahoo! Messenger: bigPoppaPump has joined the conference.
Rizzn: you can invite her if you want
Rizzn: i don't want to open up a window that lets her message me all the time now
bigPoppaPump: do you want me too?
Rizzn: 'yeah
bigPoppaPump: ok
Yahoo! Messenger: TheGirl has joined the conference.
bigPoppaPump: [Rizzn] is here [theGirl]
TheGirl: whats up with you [Rizzn]? Why are you telling people I threw your computer in the rain?
TheGirl: I threeew your book and your clothes
Rizzn: i said you threw my sh!t out the door
TheGirl: cause I was pissed
Rizzn: which is what you did
Rizzn: fscking ruined an expensive book
Rizzn: pages are ripped from it
Rizzn: stained two shirts
TheGirl: but Im not a big enough of a bitch to throew your computer in the rain
TheGirl: well you hurt me
Rizzn: oh
Rizzn: gee
Rizzn: it's all about you
TheGirl: and you woyuldnt give me 5 mins to get my personal stuff off your comp
Rizzn: yeah
TheGirl: no its not all aboiut me
TheGirl: I gave you back your things
Rizzn: right
Rizzn: and i'll get your stuff
TheGirl: Id like it now
Rizzn: i just don't see why I should bend over backward s to do it at your request
Rizzn: i'll do it when it's convenient
TheGirl: you were suppossed to bring it by the other night
TheGirl: no [Rizzn]!
TheGirl: thats not the way it works
Rizzn: sure it is
TheGirl: why the hell are you actuing like this?
TheGirl: your actuing like a child
TheGirl: your being selfish
Rizzn: you need
Rizzn: hold on
Rizzn: i have a call
bigPoppaPump: [theGirl]?
TheGirl: yes...
bigPoppaPump: I think that the whole computer out in the rain thing is my fault
bigPoppaPump: I misunderstood what was said
bigPoppaPump: I appologize
TheGirl: k
bigPoppaPump: I do have a question
TheGirl: Im not pissed at you, Im pissed that [Rizzn] is treating me so sh!tily
TheGirl: I dontt feel like I was in the wrong at all
TheGirl: I told him I wanted to see other peopl back in feb
TheGirl: he knew
Rizzn: I treated you like a queen the whole time we went out. and my thanks is that you tell me you are boxed in and seek male companionship in others. Surely you see how I could be hurt by that.
bigPoppaPump: peter said that he did not give you his account info, how did you get it?
Rizzn: we've gon round and round on what you said.
TheGirl: then one of his pals hacks my email and pulls an email that was written to me from a guy Ive been hangin out woith, that I have only kissed once and we break up
Rizzn: I think that you know what I understood, and what you portrayed to me.
TheGirl: peter gave it to me
Rizzn: and was satisfied that I had been placated and somehow was okay with that.
TheGirl: he wrote the DNS numbers out on a piece of paper for me one night
TheGirl: [Rizzn] was there
bigPoppaPump: ok just curious
bigPoppaPump: no biggied
Rizzn: you knew what would happen if you had told me about it.
Rizzn: you knew how I reacted when I learned that dean was staying there.
Rizzn: what in the HELL made you think i'd be ok with you going out with other guys
TheGirl: [Rizzn], I never meant to hurt you, i never thought that you would feel 'betrayed' since I had told you I needed space
TheGirl: I told you "I want to see other people"
Rizzn: needing space does not always equal going out with other people
TheGirl: how could you mistake that?
Rizzn: they are two way different things
TheGirl: I sadi I wanted to see other people
Rizzn: yeah
Rizzn: and I said.
TheGirl: yeah...and?
Rizzn: are you going top
Rizzn: going to
Rizzn: and you said maybe
TheGirl: I said I didnt know
TheGirl: I didnt have anyone in mind at the time
Rizzn: and you said if you do
Rizzn: you would tell me about it.
TheGirl: well sh!t [Rizzn]
Rizzn: and I would take it as a signal it was over
Rizzn: well sh!t what
TheGirl: I hadnt talked to you to tell you
Rizzn: for fscks sake
TheGirl: this all just happend within the past week
Rizzn: i'm online 24 fscking seven
Rizzn: you have all my numbers
Rizzn: you never call
TheGirl: yeah and you barley would talk to me
Rizzn: you never try to contact me
TheGirl: bulklsh!t
TheGirl: I called
Rizzn: mmhmmm
Rizzn: after the fact
Rizzn: and didn't say a word about it
TheGirl: no before
Rizzn: no
Rizzn: i remember clearly
Rizzn: the reason i didn't want to talk to you
TheGirl: no [Rizzn]
Rizzn: was because it disgusted me
Rizzn: i recieved that email last tuesday
Rizzn: you called me wed
TheGirl: nothing happened between me and that guy till last weekend
Rizzn: uh huh
Rizzn: so why was the email written last monday
TheGirl: that email was an innocent email
TheGirl: I hung out with him
TheGirl: he spent the night
TheGirl: we cuddled
Rizzn: you never fscking cuddle with me
TheGirl: we hadnt even kissed
Rizzn: what the dfscking fsck
Rizzn: asdgjk;asdf
Rizzn: jkl;jklasdfjkl
TheGirl: bullsh!t
Rizzn: 'you never want to touch me
Rizzn: you said so yourself
TheGirl: I cuddled with you all the time
Rizzn: we sleep in the same bed and you didn't want me touchin gyou
Rizzn: i'm just not in the mood
Rizzn: blah blah
TheGirl: I didnt want to have sex
Rizzn: you were never in the mood ever since new years
TheGirl: and I STILL HAVENT HAD SEX
Rizzn: well great for you
Rizzn: neither have it
Rizzn: i
TheGirl: no it was when I lost my job
TheGirl: and I was too freaked out
TheGirl: and closed in
Rizzn: the last time we were even close was new years eve
TheGirl: and all that other sh!t you dont give a damn about
TheGirl: I doubt that is true
Rizzn: i did
TheGirl: my bday
Rizzn: i gave a very big damn
TheGirl: your bday
TheGirl: you freaked out on me [Rizzn]!
Rizzn: i bent over backwards to accomidate
Rizzn: and then you tell me no
TheGirl: You started yelling and throwing sh!t around
Rizzn: you know why?
TheGirl: and I was in a ball crying on my couch
Rizzn: because you were shutting me out.
Rizzn: you were basically telling me that I couldn't ever play a meaningful part in your life
Rizzn: because you think I don't know what depressino ies
Rizzn: which is AWFULLY presumtuous of you.
TheGirl: you dont know what I go thru [Rizzn]
Rizzn: just because I don't flaunt it like you do
Rizzn: doesn't mean i don't feel it.
TheGirl: Ive been with you how long?
Rizzn: for about 7 or 8 months.. since sept
TheGirl: AND NEVER HAVE I SEEN YOU DEPPRESSED
Rizzn: bullsh!t
Rizzn: you never see it
Rizzn: because I never display it
Rizzn: you don't know what goes on inside
Rizzn: i dont' tell people about my insides
TheGirl: oh and your pissed
TheGirl: that I dont want to talk about it to you?
Rizzn: every time you shunned me
Rizzn: was a time my heart was being torn out
TheGirl: I never shunned you
Rizzn: because I cared about you
Rizzn: and you wouldn't let me get close
TheGirl: I was ALWAYS there for you
TheGirl: NO MATTER WHAT!
TheGirl: I was always there for you [Rizzn]
TheGirl: ALWAYS
TheGirl: I love you, Ive always been there for you to talk to me about anything
Rizzn: yes.
Rizzn: and I remember the good times
TheGirl: I cant l;et people close
TheGirl: its too much
TheGirl: I cant do it
TheGirl: thats why I have nebver lasted in relationships
Rizzn: How do I respond to that?
TheGirl: I dont know
TheGirl: If I knew then my life wouldnt be so empty and fscked up
bigPoppaPump: how do you expect to see other people if you cant even spend time with someone like [Rizzn] who is dedicated and persistant?
TheGirl: because I dont have to get close to other people
TheGirl: it just helps me along
TheGirl: I feel better I guess
TheGirl: its so much stress trying to be open
TheGirl: and its so much stress trying toi make a relationship work wjhen your not mentaly stable
TheGirl: deppression can really ruin things between people
Rizzn: the stress comes from one party trying to pry the other open
bigPoppaPump: [theGirl] you cant go "along" with life being fake to people
bigPoppaPump: that wont werk
TheGirl: Ive done it this far
bigPoppaPump: for you or anyone that wants to be your friend
TheGirl: [bigPoppaPump]
Rizzn: [theGirl]
TheGirl: I cant waljk thru life being outwardly deppressed
Rizzn: the pushing away is what created the stress
Rizzn: from the very beginnning
bigPoppaPump: the point is, look at the situation that you are in right now
TheGirl: Im actually doing better
TheGirl: not w/o [Rizzn]
TheGirl: but I have a job now
bigPoppaPump: you can avoid that type of thing if you would just be yourself and stop acting like someone you are not
bigPoppaPump: that is good
TheGirl: so its easyer to deal with my deppressijon cause I have a job
TheGirl: oh yeah
TheGirl: then no one would want to be around me
bigPoppaPump: you need to stay away from anything that may depress you but....you need someone to support you, and if you dont have friends to do that then you have nothing
TheGirl: deppressed people suck
TheGirl: I know this
Rizzn: [theGirl]
Rizzn: from the very beginning
Rizzn: I told you I was going to stick by you
TheGirl: I have friends who know and support me
Rizzn: until you pushed me so hard away that I couldn't come back
Rizzn: I had no problems with you being depressed
bigPoppaPump: if you have freinds that support you do they know you for who you are.......or who you pretend to be?
TheGirl: the yelling really freaked me out
TheGirl: I couldnt take it
Rizzn: but your methods of pushing me away, that's what caused this.
bigPoppaPump: the question that I have to ask you is, who are you being true to?
bigPoppaPump: yourself or your heart?
TheGirl: they know how deppressed I get and they get the same way so yeah they know all about me
TheGirl: Im true to me
TheGirl: I know whats wrong with me
bigPoppaPump: obviously not
TheGirl: I know I have a poblem with deppression
bigPoppaPump: cuz you say that you love [Rizzn]
TheGirl: I do
TheGirl: why cant I?
bigPoppaPump: but, how can you love someone that you cant have close to you?
bigPoppaPump: that does not make any sense [theGirl],
TheGirl: thats how I love everyone
TheGirl: my friends my family
TheGirl: thats how I have always loved
TheGirl: from a distance
TheGirl: Its too scary to get close
Rizzn: [theGirl], you have to learn how to trus
Rizzn: trust
bigPoppaPump: yeah but [Rizzn] is not your family or friend
bigPoppaPump: he is your boyfriend
TheGirl: I dont expcet, nor do I want anyone to have to deal woth my emotions
bigPoppaPump: someone that you are supposed to turn to more than anyone else
TheGirl: he cant deal with it
bigPoppaPump: you and he should have such a level that no matter what is going on in each others lives that you can both feel safe in each others arms
TheGirl: he made that very clear one night
bigPoppaPump: I think that he can but you wont let him
Rizzn: no
Rizzn: what was made clear
Rizzn: was that you won't let me deal with it
Rizzn: what i did
TheGirl: no
Rizzn: was out of frustration
TheGirl: you cant
Rizzn: okay
TheGirl: you had your oppertunity
TheGirl: I was letting you in
Rizzn: right
Rizzn: sure
TheGirl: you just couldnt do it
Rizzn: you didn't let me finish a single sentence i started that nighh
Rizzn: and you know it
TheGirl: its very difficult
Rizzn: not a single one
TheGirl: ask your dad
Rizzn: every time I came up with something
Rizzn: you stopped me
TheGirl: he should know
Rizzn: you didn't let me
Rizzn: i don't call that an opportunity
TheGirl: it takes a long time for people to feel safe to talk to others about it
Rizzn: I call that shutting me out.
TheGirl: i were yelling at me
Rizzn: before that even
TheGirl: I couldnt take that
Rizzn: I was as calm as could be
Rizzn: I was sitting next to you to start with
Rizzn: every time I started to speak
Rizzn: you stopped me
Rizzn: you can't understand
TheGirl: when Im deppressed I dont need someone to yell at me I need someone to just stop
TheGirl: and listen to me
Rizzn: yeah
Rizzn: I've tried that
Rizzn: I stop
Rizzn: and I listen
TheGirl: and wait until I ask you something
Rizzn: and then you say
Rizzn: I'm making you feel weird
TheGirl: no
TheGirl: you dont listen
TheGirl: you STARE
TheGirl: and I ask you to say soomething
TheGirl: and you say I dunno
TheGirl: it makes me feel like a freak
Rizzn: I really don't know what to say [theGirl]. I can't control what you feel like. You know I don't think you are a freak. I have understanding of how you feel. I have compassion, and I want to help. I don't know what I can do. I've exhausted all my resources and all my ideas.
TheGirl: I dont know what to say [Rizzn]
Rizzn: I don't know if my decison to break up with you was the right one, but I think it will give us both time to think about our actions, and see what was done wrong. But I need this time.
TheGirl: ok
Rizzn: i'll be right back
Rizzn: i'm going to clock out, my shifts over
TheGirl: k
Rizzn: back
TheGirl: k]
TheGirl: look like I said
Rizzn: sure
Rizzn: oops... wrong window
TheGirl: Im sorry I threw your sh!t in the rain I was super pissed and hurt
TheGirl: I want to make you feel how I felt
Rizzn: heh
Rizzn: well
Rizzn: I was already feeling that way
TheGirl: and thats the only thing I could thnk of doing at the time
Rizzn: Ever since Tuesday
TheGirl: Im sorry , but I never knew you would be hurt by that
TheGirl: I thought we had an understandiing
TheGirl: but thats been beat to death
Rizzn: Yeah, I imagine it has.
TheGirl: Im sorry I feel out of love with you [Rizzn], I neve planned it and like I said I wanted to stay with you and see if I would fall back in love when my life stablized
TheGirl: because I DO LOVE YOU
TheGirl: and thats the truth
TheGirl: if anything I want to stay friends with you
Rizzn: I'm ok with staying friends. If someday the hurt subsides enough, I don't know, there could be a future between us. But it just hurts really too much for me to be around you for a little while.
TheGirl: k
TheGirl: well I guess Ill let you go
Rizzn: alright. I have things to move still tonight.
TheGirl: I have to go to miindspring and oick up nikki she needs a ride home
TheGirl: k
Rizzn: I think peters waitig for me or something
TheGirl: well talk to me anytime you need me
TheGirl: Im here
Rizzn: I'll bring your stuff over this weekend.
TheGirl: k
TheGirl: night
Rizzn: g'night
TheGirl: bye [bigPoppaPump]
Yahoo! Messenger: [theGirl] has left the conference.

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/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Now if you can't find a quote of the entry in any of that crap, you have problems. Actually, let's make it a contest. Send me your faveorite line of BS. I'd like to hear it."

- Rizzn

Racoons know what's up, man, I tell ya!

Dear Diary,

I just noticed that Kelly added all her chronics to her main diary page. And it looks like I'm on the first string! Wee! I am so cool now.

There is nothing going on in my life worth interest anymore.

The hits on my diary are going down down down. I mean really, who wants to read about someone without any problems.

The biggest problem in my life right now is ... hrmm... What side of the bed to get up on.

Had to think about that one for a second.

But really, I bet my readership is going to drop, except for my dear friends that read faithfully, because there is no drama. Which is why I've got to start telling stories of my past. Which was very full of drama. Or start telling superhero stories again.

But for that, my days are going to be monotonous, no stress over whether the Girl is happy, what I did to piss her off again, whether she's cheating on me, none of that. heheh.

Wow, ideal life. I guess. ;-)

You tell me? Would you rather have a stressful but interesting life, or a boring but eventful life?

I think Albert Camus wrote a book about that called the Stranger. I think I'm going to read that again and see what my take is on it.

Sometimes I feel like my life is just a leaf blowing in the wind. I shoot out connections to people, most of them stick and become useful in some form or fashion down the line. Some of the ones I toss the huge ropes out to and tie close to my heart are the ones that strike the hardest at it.

Life at times teaches you very bad lessons. If I were to take everything that Life taught me to heart and into practice I would wind up a very bitter person. I would trust no one.

I mean for real. I wouldn't ever want to date again. Look at my history.

Out of the four major loves I've shot out that huge rope to, only two of them haven't totally screwed me over in a big way, one of them died in a car accident, and one just drifted from me when I was still grasping with all I had.

Throughout it all I still somehow remain able to love.

Maybe I'm just dumb and Life is determined to make me bitter.

But I'm not listening. LA LA LA LA i'm not listening, y'heaR!?!

Why does Life seem intent on making me hate girls? If Life were sitting in my living room I'd ask Life that.

But since Life is only a personification of a process that we all go through, and not an actual entity, I won't get to ask that question, and hopefully Wisdom will some day whisper in my ear what is really going on.

But I think, from what I understand, Wisdom comes with time, and requires it's friend Patience to be hanging around as well.

Oh well. I guess I'm getting all these buddies along the course of time, and perhaps they'll inform me some day what the heck their master plan is.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Dear Lord, grant me Patience, but please hurry!"

- Some raccoon on a poster that I have at my parents house.

Freon is bad for privates

Guten Morgen, Diary!

I am free!

Yay an all that.

No clouds over me head, no stabbing pains in my heart to what this girl is doing to me. No hurt and pain. I am totally and completely done.

I feel no badness, no weirding in my chest, no pain, no hurt.

She is finished with messing me up in the head. I can get on to bigger and better things in my life.

The way she handled the breakup was indicitive of the entire relationship. Everything was my fault. Did you know that in the conversation last night, she managed to turn the whole thing around on me and blame me for her messing with other guys?

It's my bad, guys, sorry.

Well, already she wants to get back with me. The emails and stuff haven't stopped. She's already apologized for "saying mean stuff" to me last night, but isn't sorry for her actions.

Not like it would make a difference if she was sorry.

I bought comics today. I'm so happy about this thing. I bout only like 30 bucks of comics though, so don't panic anyone I'm not back to spending 80 bucks a pop at the store.

And I'm eating cheese sticks. Which are yummy.

And I took a nap today at work. Which made me feel better.

Plus, I've slacked the whole day, taken about 12 calls.

I'd say all in all today is a success and has the makings for a really great day. I'm really on top of things.

And the best part is my paycheck in no way is going to go to the Girl for rent this month, although undoubtably she will call me and ask for help in a bit with rent.

And I will cheerfully and happily tell her to go do something profane in and demeaning to herself to remind her exactly how I feel about that request.

Really, I did care about her. Still kinda do. But she fscked up, and doesn't realize it, and one day she'll realize where she fscked up and she'll be really sad about it.

But now, I'm moving to Utah so that it'll be legal for me and Kat and Kelly to marry. Kuz that's the plan. ;-)

And my friend Phillip just got done doing the muppet dance for 10 bucks.

I think really work in an insane asylum. Between him and gerald the gay redneck dancing to the sugar plum fairy, i think I've seen it all up here.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "No, don't turn that oxygen bottle upside down, it's got freon in it. No DON't SPray it on your genitals!"

- Peter Black from Madison store 214