Toyota: oh whatta feelin!

Dear Diary,

Tonight was crazy night. I learned things that I shouldn't have learned, shouldn't have shared, but it helped out that I did, I think.

Disturbing things. Things that I wish weren't true.

And the best part is, the confrontation hasn't happenned yet! Isn't it great!

I don't know how I can handle this tactfully, don't know if I should. I don't know how to react in this situation, it's never happenned. It was bound to. But how do you predict those things?

Oh yeah, ask Crackbaby.

His next prediction is, by the way, that the Japanese Prime Minister is announced dead or brain dead by the end of the week.

(for the record, myGirl is now referred to as theGirl)

Oh yeah, if anyone asks, I was broke down on 35 last night.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: (from the Chat Logs)
bigPoppaPump: its not like you are going to cheat on him but.....its kind of unsettling
theGirl: I cant 'cheat' anyways
theGirl: Im in an open relationship with Rizzn
theGirl: we can see other people

(editorial comment: this was news to me)

Good Fscking Bye

Dear Diary,

As far as I'm concerned, she's now my ex-girlfriend.

Sincerely, Rizzn.

An then I sed to come hura to me

Dear Diary....

Remember that children's book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day? Remember Alexeander's solution to his problems? Move to Australia.

Well, I've got a solution to ALL my problems. Well, actually it was Super Fast Kel's idea.

Works for me! Yeah! See ya guys, I'm out. Next update from Canada.

...

Just kidding. I just signed a 6 month lease here. *sigh* No Canada. Maybe sometime after or something. ;-)

Actually last night, I was thinking about something funny about us humans. We stereo-type like crazy.

I realized this when I was laying in bed thinking about who? You guessed it, my Girl. And I was thinking "Man, girls are all nuts. They're crazy in the head." and "I wonder if there's a girl out there who's not crazy."

I've heard it before from others. "Men suck." "Women are nuts." or "I'll never figure out [insert gender here]."

Then I realized that not everyone fits into the same basic molds. I mean, we all have a lot in common on the inside, but we can't stereotype 2.6billion people together when we come into contact with one person of that gender.

Just a thought.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Rizzn, move to Canada and marry Kat and I. *L* There. I just solved your problem:)"

- super fast kel

I need a wide open space, I'm fallin ....

Dear Diary,

I should be in bed. So I'll keep it short and sweet. Well, short anyways. ;-)

Today, I got up, worried about my Girl. After calling her and searching for her online, I put it out of my head. I was awoken shortly before by a call from Vesper, calling for Crackbaby. We needed to do some special hacking work or something for her. I'll let her go into the details on her diary, because it's mainly her issue how much she wants to say about it.

Then after that, I bought some cigarettes, came home, dicked around, opened up a new computer. But it's just a 286, not the 486 as promised, so no Linux fileserver for me. We sat around and played the old games and opened up the old applications and the four of us roommates had a shared moment as we remembered our glory days on the ol' bbs's. The epitomy of our nerd-dom.

Those were the days.

If I could sum up this weekend in a few words, it would be nostalgic and worriesome. Worrisome because of who? You guessed it, my girl, but aside, it was nostalgic because of the recapping of our glory days and battle scars of our life we re-counted over the weekend.

For a moment I was sorry to see the house lose ol' Beeman/Solo_exceptional (Crackbaby calls him beeman, I refer to him as solo_exceptional). He too had glory days that he had been holding out on us with the stories. Ahh yes.

(moments later, as Rizzn comes out of his reverie)

If someone begs me, I will tell the stories of those days. Crackbaby might too. I look back on those days fondly, I don't know if he does, but I suspect so, in certain aspects at least.

I am so weary right now. Not just a sleepy wearieness, but an all around oldness feeling not befitting someone of his spry 21 years of age.

hehe... I said spry. Spring chicken.

heheh inside joke between me and someone who I will never see again, most likely. oh no I better stop it before I think fondly of those days too.

I'm thinking of posting up a Character's list of people who play the day to day roles in my life so that you guys will get the general overall picture of who I deal with on a day to day basis. I talk to you, diary, like you already know everyone, and you do to a certain extent, but you may not remember everyone that I'm talking about.

Plus I think that almost everyone in my life is a valuable addition and is worthy of note. I'm glad that I have known everyone that exists in my life right now. Crackbaby, Phitt, even my Girl, tho we have problems currently. Solo_exceptional, vesper, Phillip, not to even get started on all of my dland friends. Everyone is valuable to me. Everyone has helped me in ways that they don't even know.

I always go on inner reserves of strength, and I'm usually good at withstanding tonnes and tonnes of things and not breaking but lately, my friends and acquantances have been there for me, offering me support in ways they never have before, and I have just now realized how grateful I am for that.

And here I am getting all mushy about it.

Well, at least it was sweet. Not short though. Sorry bout that. heheh

So, in conclusion, my friends rule. Everyone congratulate themselves in their favorite way for being my friend as a way of my saying thanks. Now! Quickly, before you forget! Yeah!

Here's a link to my special friend Kat and Super Fast Kel who have been giving me links galore for no special reason lately which I certainly appreciate!

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "So, does the King of Insidemypants have any subjects under his jurisdiction, or does he rule on his own?" asked Rizzn foolishly.

"Sure he has subjects. Two that I can name off the top of my head..." answered Crackbaby.

"Uhhh..." uhhed Rizzn

Cuz I'm ramblin, ramble ramble ra-ah-ahmble. I'm just a ramblin' guy, oh yah!

Dear Diary...

What a lazy lazeee day.

I just woke up a few minutes ago. I vaguely remember a fone call early this morning that should have woken me up, but it didn't.

My roomies and I stayed up last night on Confusion (dxm) talking about our pasts. Real bonding experience. And we watched the Labyrinth. Been a while since I seen that.

My heart is tired. My mind is everywhere. I am weary, and need solace.

Blah blah blah yackity schmackity. Don't wanna get to serious on you.

I'm going to do someones HTML layout today and tomorrow. I'll announce it when I get a thing for everyone to see, because her site will kick buttocks!

At any rate, I need to make a run to the store. I'll probably be on later, my friends. Over and out.

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "March drags on and on, like the last episode of Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. It should have ended days ago, and yet it seems that there's still some juice left in it. Amazing how that happens."

- freeproton

H4x0r 3l337!!

Dear Diary....

I love hacking.

Note to the wise: don't mess with a hacker.

Hacking is so fun. Like my friend Splork said: "My computer is my only link to the outside world."

My reply was "Everyone else's computer is my portal to their inside world."

Don't worry tho, my friends. I don't plan to penetrate your computers. You only do that to people who you don't like. I like you guys.

That's a thing. Sometimes when you tell friends that you are a hacker, they get all scared and don't and tippey toe around you. Don't wanna piss off the hacker!

I value my friends, and hack my enemies. That's how it goes.

Hacking is my weapon, it doesn't hurt them, just gives me information. I'm never destructive when I hack, what good is that? Woo, I formatted someones hard drive! I'm 10 years old! Yay!

No insult to 10 year olds out there, but why would you do that? All they do is either fix it themselves, or take it to a technician and get it repaired, and get back online. Sure it may piss them off, but great. What I enjoy is reading the personal information that they put on their puters. Fuel for the fire! If you don't like someone, and you want to protect yourself from them, gain their information, and they are at your mercy.

It doesn't even matter if you do anything with that information. Just the satisfaction of knowing they are at your mercy, puts whatever relationship you have with them in a new light. You have them under your thumb. They mess up, or mess with you, just apply pressure. You have no trouble from them again, and problem eliminated.

Hackers have the power. To eliminate stress from their lives! heheh

Sorry guys, I'm just power tripping right now, forgive me. Hacking will do that to you. ;-)

BY THE WAY... happy April Fools day!

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "What the fuck is wonderful about me? I don't have any supernatural powers (that I know of), or posess that power to heal. I think I am just confused.

- splork

(sounds like someone needs to become a superhero!)

Suckage

Dear Diary,

I just want you know that I can be played like a fiddle.

But enough of that. Oh PLEASE enough of that. I had a refreshing chat with Leah.

And as you most likely noticed, I updated the page layout. But I figure that's pretty obvious.

Today has been a day spent in a sleepy haze.

I do better work when I come in late. I don't sleep in my cube, for one.

Blah blah blah. I'm going to intentionally avoid talking about what's on my mind, because it's bo-ring. No one wants to read it.

So instead I'll talk about oompa-loompas.

Phillip and I at work decided that this company is not populated by Rhesus Monkeys, no no no, it's Ooompa Looompas.

In fact, the description of our job that we decided on is:

"Like being duct taped to a chair and being beaten repeatedly about the head, face, and shoulders with pillows by tripping Ooompa Loompas. It doesn't hurt, you just get numb after a while."

It doesn't get any better than that, folks.

Connect tha dots. La la la. I'm losing my mind.

Ooompa Loompa Doompaty Doo....

By the way, Super Fast Kel, I'm following your orders!

/rizzn

Quote of the Entry: "Life is gonna suck when you grow up, when you grow up, yeah life is gonna suck when you grow up, it sucks pretty bad right now!"

- Dennis Leary